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Ch. 3: I Don't Need Something Like Love

 

The next day was calm and clear…

 

The dinner party is tonight.

 

I was full of anxiety.

 

Apis: "This dinner party, it’s really irritating…it’s just a ridiculous event so we can lick the boots of the merchants. Currying favor with idiots who are only interested in money…makes me sick."

 

I was anxious after seeing that Apis yesterday.

 

At that time, I heard a beautiful melody carried on a gentle breeze.

 

What is that sound…?

 

Following the sound, I found Apis resting under the shade of a tree as he played a flute.

 

His eyes were closed as he played with long, slender fingers.

 

What a pretty sound.

 

Noticing me, Apis lowered the flute and smiled at me kindly.

 

Apis: "Is something the matter Princess?"

 

Good, it’s the kind Apis…

 

OO: "…I’m sorry for interrupting you."

 

Apis: "Not at all. I was just thinking it was the perfect time to take a break."

 

Apis leaned against the tree completely exhausted.

 

Apis: "I have to practice, as the dinner party is tonight."

 

…Apis doesn’t look well.

 

OO: "Apis, are you…?"

 

[CHOICE]

  • Show concern (SUN)

  • Touch his face (MOON)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Apis: "…I’m alright. Please excuse me, I have preparations to take care of for tonight."

 

As he went to take his leave, Apis swayed slightly and his body crumpled as he collapsed onto me.

 

OO: "Apis…!"

 

Unable to bear the weight, I bent to the ground.

 

He has a really high fever…!

 

Apis: "…don’t touch me."

 

Apis, having collapsed onto me, had a cold expression like the one from when we parted yesterday.

 

His breathing is rough.

 

OO: "I’ll go get help!"

 

Apis: "…don’t!"

 

OO: "But…"

 

Apis: "…be quiet. Don’t tell anyone. Lend me your shoulder."

 

Supporting him, we somehow finally reached a room.

 

The room was beautiful and free of even a speck of dust. Only Apis’ painful breathing could be heard.

 

OO: "You can’t possibly attend the dinner party in his condition…"

 

I put a cool cloth with ice water on his forehead.

 

Apis: "…I’m fine."

 

OO: "Please don’t push yourself…I’m sure your mother would worry."

 

Saying so, Apis suddenly chuckled.

 

Apis: "Oh yeah, she’ll be terribly worried."

 

OO: "…that’s right. After all, your mother…"

 

Apis: "‘Loves me’? Is that what you want to say? ‘I love you’ sure is a useful phrase."

 

OO: "Eh…"

 

Apis: "You can bind someone with those words, make them act in the way you see fit."

 

Apis was muttering as if affected by the high fever.

 

Apis: "Behavior, studies, the flute…. Since I could understand what was going on, she’s always been forcing me. I keep trying to do my best to meet her aspirations, because she loves me. Everything is so I can live a life the way she expects."

 

OO: "That’s…"

 

Apis: "Love is something that steals away a person’s freedom. That’s why I… don't want to love anyone. Much less be loved…"

 

[CHOICE]

  • That’s not true (SUN)

  • … (MOON)

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

My heart sank at hearing Apis’ true feelings.

 

…I wonder if there’s anything I can do.

 

His breathing sounded painful, and without thinking I gently grasped his hand.

 

Apis: "…I hate when people touch me."

 

As he spoke, he loosely held my hand.

 

I simply prayed that Apis would be able to become just a little more comfortable.

 

OO: "Um...are you feeling alright? You don't look very good..."

Apis: "I'm quite alright."

However, his smiling face was tinged an unnatural shade of red.

Concerned, I naturally reached out my hand to his cheek.

 

Apis: "…!"

 

He immediately turned his face away.

OO: "…"

 

I sank into silence, unable to say more.

 

Apis: "I said too much."

OO: "I don't...think that's true."

Apis: "How can you say that when you don't know anything?"

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