Ch. 3: I Don't Need Something Like Love
The next day was calm and clear…
The dinner party is tonight.
I was full of anxiety.
Apis: "This dinner party, it’s really irritating…it’s just a ridiculous event so we can lick the boots of the merchants. Currying favor with idiots who are only interested in money…makes me sick."
I was anxious after seeing that Apis yesterday.
At that time, I heard a beautiful melody carried on a gentle breeze.
What is that sound…?
Following the sound, I found Apis resting under the shade of a tree as he played a flute.
His eyes were closed as he played with long, slender fingers.
What a pretty sound.
Noticing me, Apis lowered the flute and smiled at me kindly.
Apis: "Is something the matter Princess?"
Good, it’s the kind Apis…
OO: "…I’m sorry for interrupting you."
Apis: "Not at all. I was just thinking it was the perfect time to take a break."
Apis leaned against the tree completely exhausted.
Apis: "I have to practice, as the dinner party is tonight."
…Apis doesn’t look well.
OO: "Apis, are you…?"
[CHOICE]
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Show concern (SUN)
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Touch his face (MOON)
Apis: "…I’m alright. Please excuse me, I have preparations to take care of for tonight."
As he went to take his leave, Apis swayed slightly and his body crumpled as he collapsed onto me.
OO: "Apis…!"
Unable to bear the weight, I bent to the ground.
He has a really high fever…!
Apis: "…don’t touch me."
Apis, having collapsed onto me, had a cold expression like the one from when we parted yesterday.
His breathing is rough.
OO: "I’ll go get help!"
Apis: "…don’t!"
OO: "But…"
Apis: "…be quiet. Don’t tell anyone. Lend me your shoulder."
Supporting him, we somehow finally reached a room.
The room was beautiful and free of even a speck of dust. Only Apis’ painful breathing could be heard.
OO: "You can’t possibly attend the dinner party in his condition…"
I put a cool cloth with ice water on his forehead.
Apis: "…I’m fine."
OO: "Please don’t push yourself…I’m sure your mother would worry."
Saying so, Apis suddenly chuckled.
Apis: "Oh yeah, she’ll be terribly worried."
OO: "…that’s right. After all, your mother…"
Apis: "‘Loves me’? Is that what you want to say? ‘I love you’ sure is a useful phrase."
OO: "Eh…"
Apis: "You can bind someone with those words, make them act in the way you see fit."
Apis was muttering as if affected by the high fever.
Apis: "Behavior, studies, the flute…. Since I could understand what was going on, she’s always been forcing me. I keep trying to do my best to meet her aspirations, because she loves me. Everything is so I can live a life the way she expects."
OO: "That’s…"
Apis: "Love is something that steals away a person’s freedom. That’s why I… don't want to love anyone. Much less be loved…"
[CHOICE]
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That’s not true (SUN)
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… (MOON)
My heart sank at hearing Apis’ true feelings.
…I wonder if there’s anything I can do.
His breathing sounded painful, and without thinking I gently grasped his hand.
Apis: "…I hate when people touch me."
As he spoke, he loosely held my hand.
I simply prayed that Apis would be able to become just a little more comfortable.
OO: "Um...are you feeling alright? You don't look very good..."
Apis: "I'm quite alright."
However, his smiling face was tinged an unnatural shade of red.
Concerned, I naturally reached out my hand to his cheek.
Apis: "…!"
He immediately turned his face away.
OO: "…"
I sank into silence, unable to say more.
Apis: "I said too much."
OO: "I don't...think that's true."
Apis: "How can you say that when you don't know anything?"