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Ch. 8: True Feelings (MOON)

 

The kitten was running around, the bell around its neck jingling.

 

A few days had passed since the fire, and everyone in the castle had been completely won over by the kitten.

 

It’s still a secret from the king though…

 

At Sai’s request, all the people in the castle worked together to keep the kitten from the king.

 

But I feel like Sai’s been avoiding us since the fire.

 

He’d turned the care of his injury over to a doctor, and I couldn’t learn how he was doing.

 

He didn’t come to eat dinner either...I wonder if he’s alright.

 

I decided to bring the dinner to Sai’s room.

 

With the castle chef’s specially prepared meal in hand, I knocked on Sai’s door…

 

But there was no answer.

 

OO: “Sai? I brought dinner…”

 

I called out, but still no answer.

 

He should be in his room. I guess he really is avoiding me.

 

OO: “...Sai, I’ll come back again later.”

 

I spoke quietly, and as I turned to leave…-

 

Sai: “...help me.”

 

I think I just heard something.

 

I put my ear to the door and called out.

 

OO: “...Sai?”

 

Sai: “...OO, help me.”

 

OO: “Sai!”

 

I opened the door in a panic…

 

...!

 

Inside Sai’s room, many kittens were happily running about.

 

Seeing that scene play out, I stood there blinking for a while.

 

We only brought one kitten back didn’t we…?

 

I couldn’t really grasp what was going on…

 

Sai: “Looks like it made some friends...and I can’t get them back outside.”

 

Sai looked at the cats worriedly, and it seemed like the kitten we’d found had brought all of its friends inside.

 

I feel bad that he’s troubled by this but…

 

OO: “...haha.”

 

I couldn’t stop myself from laughing.

 

It’s kind of cute…

 

Sai: “It’s not something to laugh about…”

 

Sai was covered in cats, and he let out a deeply troubled sigh.

 

OO: “How’s your burn? Does it still hurt?”

 

Sai: “It doesn’t hurt at all now.”

 

Sai showed me his burned arm.

 

It looked completely better.

 

OO: “I’m glad…”

 

Sai: “Sorry for worrying you.”

 

I shook my head emphatically.

 

OO: “I...wanted to thank you, for saving me Sai.”

 

Sai: “You don’t need to...I can’t forgive myself for letting you get into that dangerous situation. If I’d only gone with you to the stable in the first place…”

 

...eh?

 

OO: “Sai…?”

 

Sai suddenly looked shocked, as if he hadn’t been intending to say that.

 

He’s been blaming himself...is that why he was avoiding me?

 

OO: “That’s not true! I went into the stable on my own without even thinking about what could happen… I caused you to get burned… I’m the one who should apologize.”

 

Sai: “...”

 

OO: “Please, forgive me.”

 

I was tormented by the fact that my own foolishness had caused Sai to get hurt.

 

I couldn’t bear the feelings welling up inside me as I begged his forgiveness.

 

Sai: “There’s...really nothing for you to apologize for.”

 

OO: “Then, is there anything you want me to do?”

 

Sai: “...something I want you to do?”

 

I want to do something for Sai...

 

OO: “Isn’t there anything? Just say the word and I’ll do it.”

 

Sai: “...”

 

Sai closed his eyes and thought for a moment…

 

Sai: “Then...let me touch you.”

 

OO: “Eh?”

That was not what I’d expected to hear, and I stared at him.

 

Touch…?

 

Then…

 

I was bewildered, but Sai took my hand and had me sit on the bed.

Sai: “You’re sure anything is ok…?”

 

OO: “...”

 

I timidly clasped my hand around Sai’s.

 

Sai: “...that’s not enough.”

 

Sai…?

 

He was acting different than usual, and my heart started beating faster.

 

Sai interlaced his fingers with mine.

 

Sai: “...”

 

Then he took my intertwined hand and rested it against his cheek.

 

Sai: “You’re warm… When we’re close and touching like this, it feels nice.”

Sai’s gentle voice reached my ears.

 

Sai: “During the fire, I was worried when I couldn’t touch you. You’re so reckless...and when I got close to the fire and didn’t see you, I got really worried.”

 

Sai softly kissed my hand as it rested against his cheek.

 

OO: “...”

 

Sai: “This time, I’ll protect you better…”

 

Saying so, he softly kissed my eyelid.

 

OO: “...!”

 

My cheeks heated up.

 

He placed his lips on my hair, and as it seemed as if our lips would meet…

 

Kitten: "Meow~”

 

The kitten we’d rescued jumped up between Sai and I.

 

Sai: “...you should learn to read the mood.”

 

My body suddenly relaxed, having been frozen by nerves.

 

OO: “Haha...it was probably feeling left out.”

 

Sai: “...what am I going to do with you?”

 

OO: “There there, we’re sorry.”

 

I dropped my gaze as I picked up the kitten…

 

Suddenly, my chin was lifted up, and a soft sensation touched my lips.

 

OO: “...!”

 

Sai: “We’ll continue when it’s just you and me...ok?”

 

He smiled mischievously and gently stroked my head.

 

I felt as if I would be sucked into the brilliant blue of his eyes...

 

I had to remind myself to breathe.

 

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